Vinitia's Dairy [IC]

[Joslae]

Spoiler: Holo Diary Part 1: Entry

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Dear diary,
It has been one night since the imperials removed the beds from the dormitory.
By my surprise, most of the acolytes actually took it very well. Some of them decided to sleep on the hard, cold ground.
Others took blankets out of the lockers and decided to make a bed from it.
But for me.... no.
I’ve slept awful, especially after having those nightmares from what we saw in the cave. This time it ‘luckily’ were normal dreams... i hope.
Spoken about my dreams:
Almost no one knows about it, except from Jaqcuin, Reaniu Vipion, Apprentice Aeros and thanks to Aeros also the Dark Lord himself.
The fact that I’ve been raised in Zakuul is sadly not really a secret anymore thanks to Jaqcuin, but me having those dreams still is to the others.
I cannot see why some of the acolytes believe that I’m a Zakuulan spy.
Take Sara, the Chiss for example.
She has been acting rather strange when I’m around. Could it be the fact that my natural hair colour is slowly start to come through, or is it because of the fact that I was once trained in the Zakuulian empire.
An empire that has lost my loyalty after my whole family was slaughtered under orders from Arcann.
And what about Lao? The quiet Twi’lek girl. I’m not so sure about her. She seems to understand Basic, I think.
Which makes me wonder why she never tried to speak it.
I guess that it just will be a matter of time before she’ll get punished for not speaking properly. Or at least I hope so.
And this brings me to Sherrena. The acolyte who loves to speak.
Did I already mention that she multiple times attempted to interrupt my meditation assignment that I’ve received from Aeros? No? Well I have now, and not just twice. That, and how she’s the one responsible for the beds removal in the dormitory. And not to make things worse, she also developed this habit of running with her tail between the legs to the Lords and taunts the other acolytes with her attitude. I’d be surprised if she successfully passes the trials.
There are many other things I could note at this current moment, but my mind has yet to be made up about some of the other acolytes.
Take for example Rendvir Arvanis and Lyana.
Both show some potential of becoming an Apprentice of one of the Lords after the trials. However there are a few mistakes that they both made. Especially the one mistake that Rendvir made when turning Lyana and Johran against me in a spar. Revealing his so-called ‘’Part-Time Alliance’’ with them. Making them turn on me, only to turn on the two himself. This makes me believe that he’s up to something. Yet I cannot exactly place my finger on what to expect from him. I assume that the trials will eventually show his true meaning behind this all.
And with this am i ending this page of the dairy.
I better hurry back to the Library before any of the other acolytes interrupt my studying, again.

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[Joslae]

Spoiler: Holo Diary Part 2: Entry

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Is this a dream, or did this all just happen? No.. it must be real. I better write this up before anyone notices me awake at this time. Something inside tells me to write it down. Especially after last night....

All right.... as of yesterday quite a few little things happened. And I’m not sure if it’s a good thing or not. Where shall i start? I guess that I shall start with Sherrena.
Oh my Sherrena, I didn’t expected that the once so called Dormitory would have been turned into a fighting pit. One moment we all stood around the table discussing what happened to the beds. And within a couple of eye blinks, saw I Lao the Twi’lek, yes her, almost tackling Sherrena. I believe that someone pushed the Twi’lek a bit too far in this one. Nevertheless it was fun to watch as more of the acolytes decided to join in, only to show Sherrena their thoughts about her actions.

Spoken about the others, is it me or has Lyana changed since the Medbay incident?
Take for example when I tried to ‘study’ at the library.
Is she spying on me? I do not know. But she apparently has a great dislike and distrust about the fact of me being once born on Zakuul. And then her saying that she has ‘orders’ to act this way. Really? She's acting as a one-braincelled akk-dog on a leash? Johran and the new acolyte... (oh I’m so bad at remembering names... ) and Sara where there when this happened.
I'll keep this note short, before someone notices me writing this at the middle of the night. But she made a complete fool out of herself. She’s starting to look just as Sherrena in some ways, and due this she has lost my complete interest.
However her so called ‘orders’ do intrigued me.
Could it have been an Apprentice ordering her to act this foolish among the other acolytes? I do not know.

Johran then came right to me after Lyana left the library.
''Asking'' if we could discuss something in private.
I simply accepted his request and made my way to the once so called sleeping quarters. He was about to ask me something regarding the trials, but we both got interrupted.

The metal entrance door opened as a hooded Sith made his way into the room.
Only to call me away from Johran, and ordered me to follow him?
I had no idea what was about to happen. Could it have been Lyana who snitched me? Somehow I had this strangely good feeling when I followed him to his ship. I wasn’t in chains or taken prisoner. That surely was a good thing. But seeing those guards guarding the ship made me slightly nervous. What did i do wrong this time?

What followed is something that I cannot write down here.
Connected to the central database or not. I simply cannot risk it, what if my dairy falls into the wrong hands?
All what i can write down for now, is that we’re going to try to get all my memories restored.
How? I don’t know yet, but it has to do with his research team, which I’ve joined.
I have placed my trust in him, just as I did many years ago.
This all also made me realize and remember why I’m truly here.
I must pass the trails and become sith. Not only for myself and him, but for our children Catia and Carlio.

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[Joslae]

Spoiler: Holo Diary Part 3: Entry

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Great many things have happened since my last dairy. I wish that I had more time, and privacy to write it.
Luckily, I have now.
It has been more than a few weeks since I reached out to Cautus over the Holocom, and never received a response, not until yesterday. The apprentices, a single imperial, other acolytes and me successfully returned from the mission on Korriban. The signal of my holocom returned as soon when we returned to the ship. I knew something was up when I saw the two transmissions. One call from Cautus Horuset, and one call from The Hand. Which one did I have to take first? The answer was clear.
I needed to speak with Cautus. I instantly made my way back towards Kaas city after listening to his message, there was no time to lose.

What exactly followed is something that I again cannot write down.
He managed to restore a few bits and pieces of my memory, offered me a bed for the night to stay and even some clothing for the night. He also gave me access to some if his chambers where I could refresh myself.
That was something that he didn’t need to say twice.
A much-needed refreshment was something that I carved for, especially after the mission earlier and the Mental Defence teachings that he gave me.
There was quite a lot of practise do before I could return to Th'Asidra. However we both agreed that I couldn’t stay long at his place, as that would raise questions among others.
Luckily he gave me a couple of files, which I could practise with while he is gone. But that has to stay a secret.
Lyana already might be up to something about Cautus and me.
And lets not to even forget Apprentice Aeros and Acolyte Nedhorroc, who are watching me, like a Shriek-Hawk.
I better start watching my moves more carefully from now on, before it's too late.

I also managed to speak with Thumb earlier tonight. Unable to leave the apartment, I had no other options than to contact her back from my appointed chamber. The call details however didn’t come to me as a surprise. It was truly the worst timing from Apprentice Tashha to -reward- the acolytes who would snitch the others for their so-called alliances.
Some most likely would call The Hand an alliance if they even knew about it. But to me it meant much more than just that.
We all agreed to lay low for now. Which is for the other fingers easier said than done. With some of the other acolytes distrusting me, something needs to be done.
I have to figure out a plan.
I already used Cautus Horuset his Science Team as an excuse multiple times.
This excuse combined with my memory loss about Zakuulian past would perhaps cover my tracks.
But that can't be a permanent cover.
I need to figure out a plan B. But what?
This is something that I need to contemplate about. One wrong move and it will all be over.

I won’t allow that to happen.

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