[IC] Khali's Diary

[Trakaton Kalkoran]

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[Font=Bookman Old Style]Diary

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[Font=Bookman Old Style] Entry Three: How To Get Away With Murder

The woman was lying down on a rockface, the sound of sabers clashing, Sith swearing, and rather ridiculous insults being given in the background. Should anyone ever get their hands on the logs, the voices themselves could be recognized as no other than Leive, Vax, Flavian, and Tutam.

This cat, however, seemed very relaxed. Bored, if anything. Soon enough, she began to mumble, unafraid of what may be overheard. She was far enough so that they would not hear. She had tested so, by muttering random insults their way.

The sound of an extremely bored sigh escaped her mouth...

[indent][Font=Bookman Old Style]Acolyte...Khali... Entry Three.. Oh dear.. Is this most likely going to be a hectic one.[/indent]

[Font=Bookman Old Style]Her eyes were barely looking at the camera itself, instead, staring at the sky behind it, both arms coming to the sides of the video itself, holding the datapad above her head whilst her legs dangled freely off of the rock.

[indent][Font=Bookman Old Style]What does a girl do, when she starts off the week with a proposal? A proposal.. that does not bring me much in return... Almir didn't need my help. He would have killed Ruthut himself.

He posed such a respectable threat. The man predicted my attack, pushed me off and continued to fight like a walking, fighting corpse after I had landed enough fatal blows. Yet... he continued... He gave his blood, sweat, and tears. The man seemed to know he was going to die. But he fought till his very last breath. A fitting death.. for a warrior. I...wish..he would've lived. I wish we didn't need to fight him, that day.

On my first day here... I fought Ruthut. In my humanoid form. He beat me... and Tutam made me swear that I would make up for my mistakes, in the future. Surpass what was once a rock in the road. But.. this... It didn't feel right. It felt like...cheating. We ruined all cases of honor. I murdered him.. all because... I was asked. Was... he..taking advantage of my feelings for him? No. No those are Vax's words getting in my head.[/indent]

[Font=Bookman Old Style]Her relaxed nature faded as guilt seemed to fill her expression, perhaps even a little sadness... But she quickly brushed it away, along with the tear forming in the corner of her eye. Gosh. What a crybaby she was...

[indent][Font=Bookman Old Style]He wouldn't want an alien crying over his death... So I'll stay silent. What happened... happened. It will never be spoken about again. Not to Almir. Not to... -him-. Not to anyone. There's nothing more that I hate than killing an unsuspecting man.. when they're supposed to be...allies... of all people.

But I did it.

I did it without hesitation.

It scares me. It reminded me of before.

Almir says it's how the sith are. We are Acolytes, thus, we are all rivals. Competition. That... this wasn't something to worry about. To feel guilty... about. So I'm trying my best to act tough and... No. I won't forget. Thank you... Ruthut. For reminding me what kind of world we live in. A world where... any promise... anything I might still cling to... that seems fair.. and just.. can be ruined, at any second. Be revealed to be.. but a lie. A trick. By no other than the very person, I may have called a friend.

I'm sorry we did that to you. May you rest in p-... Properly. Wherever you are now.[/indent]

[Font=Bookman Old Style]The girl almost suddenly stood up, looking over to something that had just arrived in the distance. She frowned, slumping down onto the other side of the rock. Hopefully where no one would see her, placing the datapad into the grass where it held thanks to the small stand on its back. Fine blades of grass now clouded some of the cameras, but Khali didn't seem to care at all.

[indent][Font=Bookman Old Style]Great... She's here again. Sith Soti. I don't know why everyone is so interested in that fight. They've been at it aaaall daaaay.. Give it a break.

Ugh... You know, ever since getting here, my opinion of the sith in general has been utterly shattered. Yeah... They have the strength dad spoke about.. that undying will... that lust for power. The ability to crush what hurt them.

But by the force... They are utter assholes. My robes tore on my last mission, once more ordered to transform, and naturally... I could neither disobey or waste time by removing.. said robes. Twice now have they been destroyed... Fine. That's okay. I was given civilian clothing worth nothing at all to compensate for it.

But of course... witch fingers Soti comes in, in the middle of a training session with Apprentice Tutam.. essentially telling me to strip, and disregarding any permissions The Lorekeeper had given me... Resulting in.. a week, of total nudity, cold, chills in both day and night, forcing me to walk around the camp.. in my underwear. Why? Because I'm nothing, apparently.

Sure.

I wonder what kind got stuck up her ass for her to get so stuck up. I know purebloods are xenophobic, but I've outdone most if not all of your little lobsters already. At least acknowledge me, it's not difficult.[/indent]

[Font=Bookman Old Style]Her eyes rolled to the back of her head, a puff of air blowing a strand of hair that had fallen onto her cheek, and over her eye. Although a random chuckle escaped her as she stated

[indent][Font=Bookman Old Style]But man'o'man.. That right hook from Lord Sanguinis... Hitting her right in the face. Oohf..! I heard that through the pot she'd thrown over my head. Removing it to see her laying on the ground in punishment was satisfying.

I hope it'll make you realize how much it's set me back. I don't even hate you. I was genuinely interested in what your job entailed... Back when I first joined. I'm here to make friends, not enemies amongst the people I will fight alongside. What's...the point of that in the first place.[/indent]

[Font=Bookman Old Style]She'd look at the camera, faintly pouting.

[indent][Font=Bookman Old Style]But everyone does things for a reason... I.. want to understand yours. Maybe I'm in the wrong. I'm willing to accept that, but you need to show me why. Not... beat me, and embarrass me senseless... I'll learn nothing from it.

But! But but but... This week wasn't all too bad. This.. other sith. Kaidar... He's been.. helping me. Helping me buildup the dark side in my core... Without.. triggering that other side of me. It's helped a lot... I'm eternally grateful to him for it. But I'm..worried. I don't understand -why- he wants to help in the first place.

He mentioned he finds me interesting but... I don't know. Everyone has said that. The word doesn't mean a thing to me anymore.

Then there's... Orgkez. Apprentice to none other than... Lord Sanguinis. Apparently, he was set up to tutor me.. in a sense. I haven't seen much of him... But I'm up for it. He seems... Thoughtful. Like Leive. Maybe it's something everyone in their species is like? I don't know. I haven't met many Twi'leks.

He didn't seem very surprised when I turned. More curious.. if anything, like Apprentice Horuset. Speaking of... I .. haven't spoken to him in weeks. Last I remember he wanted to run tests... Maybe it's taking longer than he expected. Or maybe... He just lost interest. I don't know. I guess we'll see.

Otherwise... This week's been spent... mostly alone. Training by myself... I just want to get away from the noise. I need some peace and quiet... Yes yes, I know the code. But I'm not going to change an expression just for the purpose of keeping to it.

I hate urban cities... and I'm beginning to hate this planet. But... I'm trying to get as much experience out of it as I can.[/indent]

[Font=Bookman Old Style]Her expression turned serious... Almost morbid in nature.

[indent][Font=Bookman Old Style]I should appreciate the freedom while it lasts.

After all...

The second I step foot on that ship, I'll be forced into a cage.

Who knows if I'll ever get out. Maybe the Dark Lord will decide it to be an easy way to get rid of me.

It's like a curse, they said. To be bound to that man.. Lord Sanguinis. After what he did to Vax... After what became of Xuna...

What's in store for me?

Maybe that's.. what I'm truly afraid of.

I've found the answer, Kaidar.[/indent]

[Font=Bookman Old Style]As soon as the video had begun, it shut, just as quickly.