[IC] Elena's Holodiary

[Theprettiestorc]

Log 18

Once more, in the outside, rainfall rustling on branches and leaves. "I'd like to think I'm getting stronger, but that's wishful thinking. Can't really let myself rest on that. Just have to keep at it."

"I'm doing better at Augmenting, getting separate parts instead of my whole body. Shock is called out quicker, and I'm getting better at fighting with them. Got into two fights, lately - one with Apprentice Orgkez after he tried to practice a technique to delve into my mind, and I... lost my temper. It ended with us on the floor, and him overpowering me. The second was against the bone-armed Acolyte, Zraetael. She's favored by Aregra, I think, for the procedure she underwent, but I noted she's... rather unsure of herself."

"There was a bit of prodding, before she would engage in a fight. I got some bruises, and exhausted myself, but I had her on the floor, as big as she is. Never once did she use a Power, which struck me as odd. But I respect her tenacity, and wonder if she fought in pits as I did. Something to think about."

A long moment. "Given recent events, two people now going through the Rite of Sacrifice in their own way, intentional or not... I wonder if that could happen to me. I see events not my own, I've been seeing people, ghosts... dreaming of the pits more and more. I've been studying Bonds, and I have to ask... what if my mother isn't gone as I'd assumed? She was taller than other slaves, always seemed so strong... am I fated to meet her again? Am I fated to plunge a blade into her chest, whispering apologies as if it will help the deed?" Deep breath, and silence, for a while.

"... is this what I must do, for power?" Quiet sounds of rain, and some half-hearted humming, before the recording finishes.