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29-04-2023, 10:41 PM
Entry Two: Lessons Learnt.
*A light blue hue emanates from the holo-device, though no visuals as of yet. The voice of Valkara is heard in a whispered-tone, along with a precarious fumbling noise.*
“Is this thing working? Uh, hello? Damn piece of ju-... oh, nevermind. Eherm… Well, it’s me again. A lot has transpired since my last holo so i’m considering this as more of an update. I have attended various lessons, more-so than previously and am learning a great deal. Ways in which to utilise the force when in combat, involving force barriers and what the Sith call force shock and force lightning.”
*The image of Valkara slowly becomes visible, the women doesn’t appear much different visually as it’s clear she’s lacking in sleep. Her golden locks tied up in a bun, resting loosely on top her head. She would appear to be seated on the floor, legs crossed as her hands move from the holo-device to settle lazily on top her knees.*
“Now, a telekinetic push or pull is easily done and very little effort by my standards. However i’m finding the barriers straining, almost pushing me to my current limit to simply channel a basic protection barrier. I’ve had no choice but to push myself, it’s either that or get bolted by another lords lightning shock for their own amusement. As for my attempts to materialize force lightning or shock toward my opponent, i continuously fail. I focus, but it’s not enough… the other acolytes utilize their rage which is no doubt fueling in their attempts but that is something i have not experienced. I have my emotion, I've just never had to manifest it into the physical plain... As you know, It goes against everything I've learnt and i cannot seem to push myself enough to do it. Although it will no doubt become problematic in the foreseeable future, the lord's will catch onto this fact and may attempt to force such an emotion to surface.”
*Valkara seems to close her eyes for a few short moments, as she’d inhale and exhale slowly. Almost as if she’s attempting to compose herself after the mere thought. Her attention would return to the holo-device as a faint but noticeable smile is visible on her features, no doubt forced.*
“I best not dwell on such a negative thing. So far, many of my fellow acolytes seem to take the brunt force of the lord's wrath more-so than i, so i shall remain as i am.
My next topic leads me onto allies. Unsure if i mentioned them in the past, i have made several though have only bonded partially well with one. Her name is Eliannah and she has seemed to have taken a odd shine to me as of late. I wouldn’t deny the ‘friendship’ she believes we have, it’s not in my nature, however i do worry for her future. She seems as though her mind is set on a destructive path, during our lessons i can sense raw anger in each attempted swipe of her training saber. Another acolyte known as Ravnor is very alike in that regard, though me and him have spoken several times and i can confidently state that i understand the reasoning behind such. I understand their reasons, the pain they must’ve felt in their past although i do not have to agree with it, sadly their minds are set on a single path and i do not believe i can help them however i shall try.”
*Valkara’s attention turns away for a short moment, the sound of one of the blast doors becomes audible in the background. Valkara looks to the holo as she’d place a single finger over her lips and remains silent for the few following moments. One may conclude, she is doing this holo-diary during the early hours of the morning as her fellow acolytes slumber.*
“ Sorry, i’m currently seated within the cafeteria and i believe someone else may have woken up so i may have to end this shortly. My last update is on the nightmares I've been experiencing, and I've previously addressed. With no one else to ask, i had requested an audience with Lord Sanguinis to ask for his aid in the matter and as expected his response was a repetitive one.
I am holding myself back, i need to give into my emotions to drown out such and open passage for a peaceful nights rest. He also informed me that they are in fact real and known as force visions, Master Eetu is calling for me. If i give into my emotions, i doubt a peaceful nights rest will ever come to me regardless. In recent days my research has been set unto force visions, ways to go about dealing with them. Could i not send my previous master one last message, inform him of my well being and perhaps he may stop? He is causing me more suffering than the lessons themselves. Bah! Regardless, a single step at a time as the saying goes.
I will continue on the path i follow, sticking close to my morals and keeping my mouth shut.
I am considered nothing, after all.”
*Valkara’s hand reaches toward the holo-device as the image of Valkara is overtaken by the palm of her hand. Various ruffeling sounds are audible before the device suddenly shuts off, as does said audio.*
*A light blue hue emanates from the holo-device, though no visuals as of yet. The voice of Valkara is heard in a whispered-tone, along with a precarious fumbling noise.*
“Is this thing working? Uh, hello? Damn piece of ju-... oh, nevermind. Eherm… Well, it’s me again. A lot has transpired since my last holo so i’m considering this as more of an update. I have attended various lessons, more-so than previously and am learning a great deal. Ways in which to utilise the force when in combat, involving force barriers and what the Sith call force shock and force lightning.”
*The image of Valkara slowly becomes visible, the women doesn’t appear much different visually as it’s clear she’s lacking in sleep. Her golden locks tied up in a bun, resting loosely on top her head. She would appear to be seated on the floor, legs crossed as her hands move from the holo-device to settle lazily on top her knees.*
“Now, a telekinetic push or pull is easily done and very little effort by my standards. However i’m finding the barriers straining, almost pushing me to my current limit to simply channel a basic protection barrier. I’ve had no choice but to push myself, it’s either that or get bolted by another lords lightning shock for their own amusement. As for my attempts to materialize force lightning or shock toward my opponent, i continuously fail. I focus, but it’s not enough… the other acolytes utilize their rage which is no doubt fueling in their attempts but that is something i have not experienced. I have my emotion, I've just never had to manifest it into the physical plain... As you know, It goes against everything I've learnt and i cannot seem to push myself enough to do it. Although it will no doubt become problematic in the foreseeable future, the lord's will catch onto this fact and may attempt to force such an emotion to surface.”
*Valkara seems to close her eyes for a few short moments, as she’d inhale and exhale slowly. Almost as if she’s attempting to compose herself after the mere thought. Her attention would return to the holo-device as a faint but noticeable smile is visible on her features, no doubt forced.*
“I best not dwell on such a negative thing. So far, many of my fellow acolytes seem to take the brunt force of the lord's wrath more-so than i, so i shall remain as i am.
My next topic leads me onto allies. Unsure if i mentioned them in the past, i have made several though have only bonded partially well with one. Her name is Eliannah and she has seemed to have taken a odd shine to me as of late. I wouldn’t deny the ‘friendship’ she believes we have, it’s not in my nature, however i do worry for her future. She seems as though her mind is set on a destructive path, during our lessons i can sense raw anger in each attempted swipe of her training saber. Another acolyte known as Ravnor is very alike in that regard, though me and him have spoken several times and i can confidently state that i understand the reasoning behind such. I understand their reasons, the pain they must’ve felt in their past although i do not have to agree with it, sadly their minds are set on a single path and i do not believe i can help them however i shall try.”
*Valkara’s attention turns away for a short moment, the sound of one of the blast doors becomes audible in the background. Valkara looks to the holo as she’d place a single finger over her lips and remains silent for the few following moments. One may conclude, she is doing this holo-diary during the early hours of the morning as her fellow acolytes slumber.*
“ Sorry, i’m currently seated within the cafeteria and i believe someone else may have woken up so i may have to end this shortly. My last update is on the nightmares I've been experiencing, and I've previously addressed. With no one else to ask, i had requested an audience with Lord Sanguinis to ask for his aid in the matter and as expected his response was a repetitive one.
I am holding myself back, i need to give into my emotions to drown out such and open passage for a peaceful nights rest. He also informed me that they are in fact real and known as force visions, Master Eetu is calling for me. If i give into my emotions, i doubt a peaceful nights rest will ever come to me regardless. In recent days my research has been set unto force visions, ways to go about dealing with them. Could i not send my previous master one last message, inform him of my well being and perhaps he may stop? He is causing me more suffering than the lessons themselves. Bah! Regardless, a single step at a time as the saying goes.
I will continue on the path i follow, sticking close to my morals and keeping my mouth shut.
I am considered nothing, after all.”
*Valkara’s hand reaches toward the holo-device as the image of Valkara is overtaken by the palm of her hand. Various ruffeling sounds are audible before the device suddenly shuts off, as does said audio.*
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