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29-04-2023, 10:41 PM
Entry One: Jedi Among the Sith.
*A young, slim, golden haired woman steps into frame before pulling a seat from beneath a table and seating herself upon it. As she sits, she seems at ease for the moment as a relieved sigh escapes her lips, she sinks back into the seat.*
“Huh, first time i’ve tried to start a holo diary… never had reason to do it in the past. I guess i should start by explaining who i am and where i stand. I’m Valkara and i’m an Acolyte within House Horuset. Was this a choice? Not at all, it was forced by Lord Sanguinis.”
*Upon mentioning Lord Sanguinis, Valkara’s delicate facial features crinkle in disgust as she’d wave her right hand dismissively.*
“Lord Sanguinis, even the name makes me feel sick to the stomach. I won’t go into detail to the reasoning behind such a feeling, but i believe this is what he wants. He wants me to use my emotions, my hatred towards him, to turn entirely toward the dark side though i refuse. Prior to my current situation i was the Jedi Padawan to Master Eetu, from which he lead me down the righteous path of becoming a Jedi. Although, in recent days it’s becoming more and more difficult for me to hold onto my former teachings.”
“I feel a crushing sensation in my mind continuously, doubt, hate, loneliness, fear, all emotions i try to keep from destroying the person i am and replacing it with a hollowed out shell. Though i feel pity for the fellow Acolytes and Apprentices as they seem nothing more then just that, though some may be redeemable. I have encountered a few that have sparked my interests, they’ve shown mercy, pity and compassion in some of the lessons i had attended… odd traits for Acolytes indeed.”
*Valkara exhales softly, lowering her head in her hands as her fingers slowly clench clumps of her hair in irritability. She’s unquestionably on edge, though continues speaking whilst remaining in this position.*
“Redeemable? Heh, listen to me… am i losing my mind? Possibly. I can’t explain anything to anyone and i’m stuck in the centre and have nowhere to turn. Doesn’t help that i’m suffering from nightmares and a major lack in sleep, i keep hearing Master Eetu calling out to me, is this real? If so, how could i contact him? Or rather, should i. I have reason to believe this is real, that he’s searching for me and shan’t stop until he succeeds. I wish i could aid in his attempts, to reach out… although, it will only put his life at risk and knowing the Sith they won’t allow him a peaceful death. Maybe i should just leave him be…”
*Slowly, she’d look upward toward the holo and places her hands on her lap for a short moment before reaching out. The sleep deprived women looks drained, both emotionally and physically. The holorecording soon ends as the image of Valkara vanishes also.*
(OOC: This Holo Diary is not left for IC public viewing. Contact me OOCly for further information.) [u]
*A young, slim, golden haired woman steps into frame before pulling a seat from beneath a table and seating herself upon it. As she sits, she seems at ease for the moment as a relieved sigh escapes her lips, she sinks back into the seat.*
“Huh, first time i’ve tried to start a holo diary… never had reason to do it in the past. I guess i should start by explaining who i am and where i stand. I’m Valkara and i’m an Acolyte within House Horuset. Was this a choice? Not at all, it was forced by Lord Sanguinis.”
*Upon mentioning Lord Sanguinis, Valkara’s delicate facial features crinkle in disgust as she’d wave her right hand dismissively.*
“Lord Sanguinis, even the name makes me feel sick to the stomach. I won’t go into detail to the reasoning behind such a feeling, but i believe this is what he wants. He wants me to use my emotions, my hatred towards him, to turn entirely toward the dark side though i refuse. Prior to my current situation i was the Jedi Padawan to Master Eetu, from which he lead me down the righteous path of becoming a Jedi. Although, in recent days it’s becoming more and more difficult for me to hold onto my former teachings.”
“I feel a crushing sensation in my mind continuously, doubt, hate, loneliness, fear, all emotions i try to keep from destroying the person i am and replacing it with a hollowed out shell. Though i feel pity for the fellow Acolytes and Apprentices as they seem nothing more then just that, though some may be redeemable. I have encountered a few that have sparked my interests, they’ve shown mercy, pity and compassion in some of the lessons i had attended… odd traits for Acolytes indeed.”
*Valkara exhales softly, lowering her head in her hands as her fingers slowly clench clumps of her hair in irritability. She’s unquestionably on edge, though continues speaking whilst remaining in this position.*
“Redeemable? Heh, listen to me… am i losing my mind? Possibly. I can’t explain anything to anyone and i’m stuck in the centre and have nowhere to turn. Doesn’t help that i’m suffering from nightmares and a major lack in sleep, i keep hearing Master Eetu calling out to me, is this real? If so, how could i contact him? Or rather, should i. I have reason to believe this is real, that he’s searching for me and shan’t stop until he succeeds. I wish i could aid in his attempts, to reach out… although, it will only put his life at risk and knowing the Sith they won’t allow him a peaceful death. Maybe i should just leave him be…”
*Slowly, she’d look upward toward the holo and places her hands on her lap for a short moment before reaching out. The sleep deprived women looks drained, both emotionally and physically. The holorecording soon ends as the image of Valkara vanishes also.*
(OOC: This Holo Diary is not left for IC public viewing. Contact me OOCly for further information.) [u]
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