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29-04-2023, 12:25 PM
A tall Pureblood would appear in hologrpahic form. His yellow eyes stared at the space in front of him, with an expression of uncertainty on his face. He stood silent for a while, as if he was not sure of how to proceed with the recording device. Finally, he would open his mouth and speak in Sith
“I am Acolyte Ruthut, and this is my holo diary. I am recording it as a tool for myself, to better analyze my thoughts, hoping that any weakness I may have becomes visible in the recording and that I may purge it.”
He would pause for a moment, quite clearly deep in thought. Perhaps thinking about what he had just said, or what he is going to say next.
"I have spent what must have been many months now in the Horuset Powerbase. It is tough to say how long its been precisely, one day started blending into the other almost seemingly rather quickly. I have learned much during my stay here. It is only when you spend enough time as an acolyte that you really recognize the true value of the training system. The first thing an Acolyte learns is his own weakness. I doubt I would have said this months ago when I first came here. Back on Korriban my physical strength was usually enough to dominate all the other acolytes. All of us lacked severly in skill, and when two opponents lack skill – it is the physical advantages that determine the outcome. When I first came to the Horuset Spire I had the same mindset, expecting that as soon as I run into the other acolytes I will dominate all of them. My excitement only grew when I found out acolyte trials would be hosted soon. It was foolish of me to think that. The batch I came to be part of had been in the powerbase for far longer. I lost every duel I fought, one after another. I failed both trials I participated in. Back then I could not understand why, I should have been able to crush them like those on Korriban. "
A bitter smile would appear on his face as he paused. It was the smile so often seen on the faces of those speaking about their past experiences that they looked back on fondly, yet did not wish to return to these times for whatever reason. It however quickly disappears and is replaced by his usual serious expression.
"But now I do understand. The acolyte batch that I was part of had been in the powerbase for many months, while I had just joined. They had real skill, real power. It was no match. But even then, I did not fully understand. I held unto my delusions of grandeur for long after the trials. I somehow coped with the failures, ignored them. This is what a sith should never do, a sith should never allow weakness to grow inside him. If a sith does that, it begins to rot like an open wound. Much like gangrene it starts spreading, first to the limb and slowly to the rest of the body. This is why learning that you are weak at this stage is so important, without it one cannot address the weakness inside them. This is why so many die during the trials, the weakness consumes them because they do not want to address it."
"And I initially did not want to do it either. But something happened that finally opened my eyes. I met a certain Valeus Horuset, then just another acolyte. We sparred and I lost, though I put up a good fight. We established somewhat cordial relations following this, or rather he wanted to make me his pawn. I decided to go along with it. Why? Because I was politically isolated among the acolytes, and I believed that I could benefit from aligning myself with him. It was not easy to swallow my pride there, but to this day I believe it was a good choice.But Valeus himself is not important here. What matters is the chain of events he started. "
"I think he was insulted by an alien called Orgkez, back then also just another acolyte. Well, perhaps not insulted but he had some grudge against him. Valeus asked me to teach the alien a lesson, a task which I happily accepted. The duel I would have with Orgkez few days later was what opened my eyes to how disgustingly weak I was……yes, it was perhaps the most important duel I have fought so far. "
" But I have said enough about the past I think. I will go back to it in another entry. I would like to instead talk about current events."
"The new acolyte batch doesn’t seem to have many of pure blood. Needless to say, this is to my advantage as it means less competition. That said, there are some acolytes of note. Two that I think I should keep a particularly keen eye on. First of them is Flavian, he is one of those aliens who have hair in strange colours.I have yet to see him fighting a duel, but he seems very determined and as such dangerous. I should sparr with him some day to understand him."
"There is also Viren Sekker, He has some Sith blood, though not much. This alone is enough for him to be a person of interest in this batch. I recently approached him with an offer to hold a series of spars in for the upcoming shii-cho test that Sith Mitina is going to hold."
"There is also some….. crab creature? He is of note because hes really disgusting. Nothing else really."
Both his face and voice became visibly more excited as he continued
"Ah yes, how could I have forgotten about the test! Sith Mitina has announced that acolytes will from now on be allowed to learn more than one form, but we have to first prove to her our shii-cho skills. I cannot explain with words how much I am excited for this. If I succeed I will be able to finally begin my studies of djem-so, but also perhaps attract a master. Considering that the study of the blade is my main focus, Sith Mitina would be perfect. Am I really ready however? I am confident in my shii-cho skills but experience taught me not to be overly confident in these matters. The upcoming sparrs with Viren should tell."
"End Recording."
“I am Acolyte Ruthut, and this is my holo diary. I am recording it as a tool for myself, to better analyze my thoughts, hoping that any weakness I may have becomes visible in the recording and that I may purge it.”
He would pause for a moment, quite clearly deep in thought. Perhaps thinking about what he had just said, or what he is going to say next.
"I have spent what must have been many months now in the Horuset Powerbase. It is tough to say how long its been precisely, one day started blending into the other almost seemingly rather quickly. I have learned much during my stay here. It is only when you spend enough time as an acolyte that you really recognize the true value of the training system. The first thing an Acolyte learns is his own weakness. I doubt I would have said this months ago when I first came here. Back on Korriban my physical strength was usually enough to dominate all the other acolytes. All of us lacked severly in skill, and when two opponents lack skill – it is the physical advantages that determine the outcome. When I first came to the Horuset Spire I had the same mindset, expecting that as soon as I run into the other acolytes I will dominate all of them. My excitement only grew when I found out acolyte trials would be hosted soon. It was foolish of me to think that. The batch I came to be part of had been in the powerbase for far longer. I lost every duel I fought, one after another. I failed both trials I participated in. Back then I could not understand why, I should have been able to crush them like those on Korriban. "
A bitter smile would appear on his face as he paused. It was the smile so often seen on the faces of those speaking about their past experiences that they looked back on fondly, yet did not wish to return to these times for whatever reason. It however quickly disappears and is replaced by his usual serious expression.
"But now I do understand. The acolyte batch that I was part of had been in the powerbase for many months, while I had just joined. They had real skill, real power. It was no match. But even then, I did not fully understand. I held unto my delusions of grandeur for long after the trials. I somehow coped with the failures, ignored them. This is what a sith should never do, a sith should never allow weakness to grow inside him. If a sith does that, it begins to rot like an open wound. Much like gangrene it starts spreading, first to the limb and slowly to the rest of the body. This is why learning that you are weak at this stage is so important, without it one cannot address the weakness inside them. This is why so many die during the trials, the weakness consumes them because they do not want to address it."
"And I initially did not want to do it either. But something happened that finally opened my eyes. I met a certain Valeus Horuset, then just another acolyte. We sparred and I lost, though I put up a good fight. We established somewhat cordial relations following this, or rather he wanted to make me his pawn. I decided to go along with it. Why? Because I was politically isolated among the acolytes, and I believed that I could benefit from aligning myself with him. It was not easy to swallow my pride there, but to this day I believe it was a good choice.But Valeus himself is not important here. What matters is the chain of events he started. "
"I think he was insulted by an alien called Orgkez, back then also just another acolyte. Well, perhaps not insulted but he had some grudge against him. Valeus asked me to teach the alien a lesson, a task which I happily accepted. The duel I would have with Orgkez few days later was what opened my eyes to how disgustingly weak I was……yes, it was perhaps the most important duel I have fought so far. "
" But I have said enough about the past I think. I will go back to it in another entry. I would like to instead talk about current events."
"The new acolyte batch doesn’t seem to have many of pure blood. Needless to say, this is to my advantage as it means less competition. That said, there are some acolytes of note. Two that I think I should keep a particularly keen eye on. First of them is Flavian, he is one of those aliens who have hair in strange colours.I have yet to see him fighting a duel, but he seems very determined and as such dangerous. I should sparr with him some day to understand him."
"There is also Viren Sekker, He has some Sith blood, though not much. This alone is enough for him to be a person of interest in this batch. I recently approached him with an offer to hold a series of spars in for the upcoming shii-cho test that Sith Mitina is going to hold."
"There is also some….. crab creature? He is of note because hes really disgusting. Nothing else really."
Both his face and voice became visibly more excited as he continued
"Ah yes, how could I have forgotten about the test! Sith Mitina has announced that acolytes will from now on be allowed to learn more than one form, but we have to first prove to her our shii-cho skills. I cannot explain with words how much I am excited for this. If I succeed I will be able to finally begin my studies of djem-so, but also perhaps attract a master. Considering that the study of the blade is my main focus, Sith Mitina would be perfect. Am I really ready however? I am confident in my shii-cho skills but experience taught me not to be overly confident in these matters. The upcoming sparrs with Viren should tell."
"End Recording."
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