Valkara's Holo Diary

[Joslae]

Entry One: Jedi Among the Sith.


*A young, slim, golden haired woman steps into frame before pulling a seat from beneath a table and seating herself upon it. As she sits, she seems at ease for the moment as a relieved sigh escapes her lips, she sinks back into the seat.*

“Huh, first time i’ve tried to start a holo diary… never had reason to do it in the past. I guess i should start by explaining who i am and where i stand. I’m Valkara and i’m an Acolyte within House Horuset. Was this a choice? Not at all, it was forced by Lord Sanguinis.”

*Upon mentioning Lord Sanguinis, Valkara’s delicate facial features crinkle in disgust as she’d wave her right hand dismissively.*

“Lord Sanguinis, even the name makes me feel sick to the stomach. I won’t go into detail to the reasoning behind such a feeling, but i believe this is what he wants. He wants me to use my emotions, my hatred towards him, to turn entirely toward the dark side though i refuse. Prior to my current situation i was the Jedi Padawan to Master Eetu, from which he lead me down the righteous path of becoming a Jedi. Although, in recent days it’s becoming more and more difficult for me to hold onto my former teachings.”

“I feel a crushing sensation in my mind continuously, doubt, hate, loneliness, fear, all emotions i try to keep from destroying the person i am and replacing it with a hollowed out shell. Though i feel pity for the fellow Acolytes and Apprentices as they seem nothing more then just that, though some may be redeemable. I have encountered a few that have sparked my interests, they’ve shown mercy, pity and compassion in some of the lessons i had attended… odd traits for Acolytes indeed.”

*Valkara exhales softly, lowering her head in her hands as her fingers slowly clench clumps of her hair in irritability. She’s unquestionably on edge, though continues speaking whilst remaining in this position.*

“Redeemable? Heh, listen to me… am i losing my mind? Possibly. I can’t explain anything to anyone and i’m stuck in the centre and have nowhere to turn. Doesn’t help that i’m suffering from nightmares and a major lack in sleep, i keep hearing Master Eetu calling out to me, is this real? If so, how could i contact him? Or rather, should i. I have reason to believe this is real, that he’s searching for me and shan’t stop until he succeeds. I wish i could aid in his attempts, to reach out… although, it will only put his life at risk and knowing the Sith they won’t allow him a peaceful death. Maybe i should just leave him be…”

*Slowly, she’d look upward toward the holo and places her hands on her lap for a short moment before reaching out. The sleep deprived women looks drained, both emotionally and physically. The holorecording soon ends as the image of Valkara vanishes also.*


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[Joslae]

Entry Two: Lessons Learnt.



*A light blue hue emanates from the holo-device, though no visuals as of yet. The voice of Valkara is heard in a whispered-tone, along with a precarious fumbling noise.*

“Is this thing working? Uh, hello? Damn piece of ju-... oh, nevermind. Eherm… Well, it’s me again. A lot has transpired since my last holo so i’m considering this as more of an update. I have attended various lessons, more-so than previously and am learning a great deal. Ways in which to utilise the force when in combat, involving force barriers and what the Sith call force shock and force lightning.”

*The image of Valkara slowly becomes visible, the women doesn’t appear much different visually as it’s clear she’s lacking in sleep. Her golden locks tied up in a bun, resting loosely on top her head. She would appear to be seated on the floor, legs crossed as her hands move from the holo-device to settle lazily on top her knees.*

“Now, a telekinetic push or pull is easily done and very little effort by my standards. However i’m finding the barriers straining, almost pushing me to my current limit to simply channel a basic protection barrier. I’ve had no choice but to push myself, it’s either that or get bolted by another lords lightning shock for their own amusement. As for my attempts to materialize force lightning or shock toward my opponent, i continuously fail. I focus, but it’s not enough… the other acolytes utilize their rage which is no doubt fueling in their attempts but that is something i have not experienced. I have my emotion, I've just never had to manifest it into the physical plain... As you know, It goes against everything I've learnt and i cannot seem to push myself enough to do it. Although it will no doubt become problematic in the foreseeable future, the lord's will catch onto this fact and may attempt to force such an emotion to surface.”

*Valkara seems to close her eyes for a few short moments, as she’d inhale and exhale slowly. Almost as if she’s attempting to compose herself after the mere thought. Her attention would return to the holo-device as a faint but noticeable smile is visible on her features, no doubt forced.*


“I best not dwell on such a negative thing. So far, many of my fellow acolytes seem to take the brunt force of the lord's wrath more-so than i, so i shall remain as i am.
My next topic leads me onto allies. Unsure if i mentioned them in the past, i have made several though have only bonded partially well with one. Her name is Eliannah and she has seemed to have taken a odd shine to me as of late. I wouldn’t deny the ‘friendship’ she believes we have, it’s not in my nature, however i do worry for her future. She seems as though her mind is set on a destructive path, during our lessons i can sense raw anger in each attempted swipe of her training saber. Another acolyte known as Ravnor is very alike in that regard, though me and him have spoken several times and i can confidently state that i understand the reasoning behind such. I understand their reasons, the pain they must’ve felt in their past although i do not have to agree with it, sadly their minds are set on a single path and i do not believe i can help them however i shall try.”

*Valkara’s attention turns away for a short moment, the sound of one of the blast doors becomes audible in the background. Valkara looks to the holo as she’d place a single finger over her lips and remains silent for the few following moments. One may conclude, she is doing this holo-diary during the early hours of the morning as her fellow acolytes slumber.*

“ Sorry, i’m currently seated within the cafeteria and i believe someone else may have woken up so i may have to end this shortly. My last update is on the nightmares I've been experiencing, and I've previously addressed. With no one else to ask, i had requested an audience with Lord Sanguinis to ask for his aid in the matter and as expected his response was a repetitive one.
I am holding myself back, i need to give into my emotions to drown out such and open passage for a peaceful nights rest. He also informed me that they are in fact real and known as force visions, Master Eetu is calling for me. If i give into my emotions, i doubt a peaceful nights rest will ever come to me regardless. In recent days my research has been set unto force visions, ways to go about dealing with them. Could i not send my previous master one last message, inform him of my well being and perhaps he may stop? He is causing me more suffering than the lessons themselves. Bah! Regardless, a single step at a time as the saying goes.
I will continue on the path i follow, sticking close to my morals and keeping my mouth shut.
I am considered nothing, after all.”

*Valkara’s hand reaches toward the holo-device as the image of Valkara is overtaken by the palm of her hand. Various ruffeling sounds are audible before the device suddenly shuts off, as does said audio.*

[Joslae]

Entry Three: Unwanted.


*The holo communicator briefly makes an audible buzzing sound and the familiar light blue hue makes itself visible. The form of the slim, golden haired women seated on the ground follows shortly after, legs resting in a somewhat awkward position. Valkara would appear different in a sense, her gaze staring down toward the palms of her hands that remain resting on top her lap.*

“I can’t stand this, I can’t. So much has happened within my time here and I wish I wasn’t apart of it. Those who occupy the halls of this ship are broken… every, single, one.
I’m losing hope, everything I thought I could accomplish here is proving more and more difficult. How stupid, arrogant and single minded was I to believe I could fight against it, perhaps even keep the light side of me long enough for Master Eetu to make contact to aid me to escape; Though what’s the point? I have committed crimes against everything I stood for, would they even accept me back? Lord Sanguinis is getting exactly what he wants, and I hate it.”

*The women looked up toward the holo-communicator, it’s clear she’s been in the state of emotional distress for several hours prior to the given time. Using her left hand as her thumb massages against the palm of her right hand, nervously. Her eyes puffy, red and bloodshot as they look directly toward the holo.*

“Firstly, we were informed of a task to retrieve a full set of armour belonging to a former knight of Zakuul. Not much information was given before we were shipped off to Korriban. I never ventured much further from the academy, so the location we were thrown into was unknown to me however it didn’t look much different from the dull, sandy plain I was familiar with.
We were put into groups, made to search the area to find anything of interest and I of course, found nothing but sand and stones. Someone found something, or rather disrupted something which later lead onto a fight for survival as a horde of beetle-bug-things emerged from the sand and surrounded our position. I managed to keep them at bay as Eliannah force shocked them to dwindle their numbers, but it didn’t seem to do much. Before I knew it, Eli collapsed, it was my duty to pull her back into the group as we moved closer to one-another as their numbers kept increasing and ours were clearly decreasing. It was clear, everyone was reaching their limits.”

“A single person made their way to retrieve the armour, disregarding the fact we all were struggling in our own ways. Working as a team, we managed to distract the bugs long enough to make the mission a success. Once the armour was recovered, we fled back toward the ship. I offered my aid to Eliannah as she clearly needed it, however her mind was clouded by emotion that she wanted to continue on… i did ensure her safety regardless. It pains me to say that the whole ordeal was enjoyable? The adrenaline alone made it worthwhile though i had no way of surviving as long as i did without drawing from the emotions i had kept locked away. A single step in the wrong direction.”

*Valkara reaches toward the holo device raising it from the floor and placing it on top a table, standing from her previous seated position as she’d stand tall, hands clasping each other against the small of her back. Her facial expression shows pain, regret and struggle seeming to try and hold her own against the news to come.*

“I did something, i-... it was never my intention neither has it happened before. I took part in another lesson, force barriers to be precise. The lesson progressed as expected, a lot of talking along with some practical teachings before Marlios had entered. He attended the lesson extremely late and in response was punished severely. He was expected to form a barrier to withstand the power of several acolytes and their force push, which we all already knew it wasn’t going to happen. I almost feel as though i was in a trance, focusing on myself and perfecting my ability… i never thought of the repercussions on the actions i was about to commit. Everyone did as instructed, as did i; His barrier broke and so did his body, the sound still haunts me as he looked like a doll that was aimlessly tossed aside.
To make matters worse i was asked to aid in bringing him to the medbay, and i still didn’t think of his well being. I overheard the lords speaking a short while after, Marlios had died from his wounds. Then it hit me, i was responsible for the death of another and i didn’t even care whilst i did it. Why didn’t i? I have been thinking about this constantly since it transpired. I could’ve faked it, or not have put so much into it… i treated him like a training dummy and i hate myself for it. I’ve never killed anyone before, never played a part in harming another until Lord Sanguinis forced me into this new life. I can’t return, if the Jedi ever get the chance to bring me home i will never be accepted, i can’t even accept myself.”

“I could include more updates, but for now i would rather not. I will try to keep fighting for who i -am-, i can’t lose that. End transmission.”

*Valkara’s form would diminish as the light blue hue of the holo communicator does so as well.*

[Joslae]

Entry Four: Punishment.


*The following holo-diary is entirely audio based, no visuals are noted as the familiar voice of Valkara becomes audible. *

“Things seem to be looking up, I think. I have kept myself busy by creating my own alliance within the acolytes. I do however, already belong to one though I wouldn’t consider it an alliance in the slightest. My alliance currently consists of myself, Eliannah, Leive and Aethean.
I have recently encountered some others and brought the alliance to light, understandably they are weary of such an offer and only ally themselves with me until the others have proven their worth.
The alliance grows, and it will continue to do so in time; only to allow entry for those who have more than proven themselves trustworthy. I would even consider these people friends… I’ve missed that. However, my current situation has given me some cause for concern for my allies safety.”

“My emotions were running at an all-time high and somehow Lord Sanguinis became aware. This was shortly after the lesson involving Marlios. Aethean was present within the medbay recovering from wounds inflicted during the prior training. I came to see how he was, though after a short conversation we were rudely interrupted by the sudden appearance of Lord Sanguinis. He was just staring… I felt my heart sink, I didn’t know how to respond or what to say at the time. After the silence had ended abruptly, he began to demand answers to questions regarding Aethean and i. I informed him that he is one of my friends within the acolytes.

“Friends are for the Jedi, Allies are for the Sith” – Lord Sanguinis.

“I thus rephrased my answer, informing him that Aethean is one of my allies within the acolytes. Though, my choice of wording on the subject simply caused more issues as Lord Sanguinis progressed to torment and harm Aethean as his questions became more in-depth. Even threatening to tell Aethean ‘The Truth’ and as expected, he was left asking questions. I didn’t wish to put anymore of the allies in harm’s way and so I refused him, I stepped up and faced him although I can honestly say I wasn’t in my right mind at the time. I was angry, furious… I had been partly responsible for a death and now I was being toyed with, with someone I care for taking the blow. He was becoming more forceful, grabbing Aethean by the face and progressed to shock him continuously… then it happened. I snapped out of the trance I was in, I looked to Aethean with a look of horror as he was even worse than he was previously.
Why is this happening? I cannot control these emotions, I lose sight of myself and it seems someone else always pays the price.

*A familiar background noise becomes audible over the holo communicator, those onboard the ship may recognise the sound of the blast doors opening and closing. Following soon after, various mumbled sounds are heard as it’s clear someone had been addressing Valkara though what is said is muffled and inaudible. Shortly after, Valkara’s voice perks up again. *

“In other news, we were taken into a tomb to recover something that the lords considered a great importance. I won’t bore you with the details, however the experience was one I’ll be sure to remember. They had trials throughout, along with various tricks and traps scattered through the corridors. We had to face undead corpses that had risen, they were as strong as myself; disregarding their decomposing state. We bested them and progressed on. There were several trials, however we all managed to make our way through although that isn’t even the interesting part of the whole ordeal. Apprentice Siors decided it would be a wise idea to steal a necklace from the temple, which thus resulted in the whole tomb collapsing… but we managed to escape. Though such idiocy required a punishment and that punishment was dealt out much sooner than expected plus we were witnessed to it. Lord Sanguinis made it clear to all those present that such ignorance would be punished before the swift removal of Siors arm from his elbow. I couldn’t watch, he may have been an idiot, but no one deserves what he had received… though perhaps it was more of a show of power, Lord Sanguinis making it known to not go against his orders otherwise the punishments will be severe. Just makes me disgust him more.”

“To conclude, the force visions I have been experiencing have drowned out though not entirely gone. I think it’s because I have had no other choice but tap into my emotions and use them when manipulating the force throughout my time here. Although this helps me with the fact of gaining sleep and rest for the trials to come it’s also proving that I’m leading down a dark path; one I would rather keep myself from following.”

“End transmission.”

*The blue hue of hue of the holo-communicator dims slightly before leaving completely, no following audio is audible.*

[Joslae]

Entry Five : Trials


*The holo-diary broadcast would seem somewhat interrupted, the visuals are blurred and distorted although the image of Valkara would vaguely show clad in different robes. She’d appear to be sketching whilst sitting within the cafeteria on the ship, her attention occasionally shifting to address the holo. *

“The trials have finally been completed, with that my time here is coming to an end. This holo-entry will explain my experiences with pre-trials and my involvement during such. Along with my current position within House Horuset and my future."

“Prior to the first trial Lord Sanguinis had given me a lighter and made it out as a “gift” though I knew there was a point behind his actions and of course, there was. Moments after he left an announcement was given out… the one to return the item within four days will gain his favour. Almost instantly I was approached and threatened, the Acolyte in question didn’t attempt anything and thus gave me time to take my leave without issue. I did not return to the ship, instead I took a shuttle to Dromund Kaas and managed to hide the lighter in a place only I would know. Following this, I made my way to one of the bars located within the main city and managed to swipe a tattered, well-used lighter from a drunk merc without detection then returned to the ship. The competition was rather disappointing in the following days as no other acolytes even attempted anything however, Acolyte Sovernus and I spoke regarding the lighter and Neds alliance. I never had trust for Ned and wasn’t surprised to hear that his intentions were to take the lighter by force to gain the lord's favour. A plan was formed, and he walked right into it without any hesitation, thus taking the fake lighter and returning it to Lord Sanguinis only to be disappointed. Myself and Sovernus arrived to witness the failure and I couldn’t help but find it pleasing. We both returned the true-lighter and so we were both acknowledged by the Lord for completing the task.”

“Now onto the trails…”

“The first trial was clearly set for being a strategist alongside strength and cunning. We were to locate and kill a beast that would easily kill a single acolyte should they attempt it alone. Myself, Sovernus and Xuna packed together with Ned worming his way within the click. I wasn’t pleased with him joining us but there was little time to argue. A fresh acolyte decided to run in, arms flailing to the cave system ahead and to nobodies surprise it grabbed the beasts’ attention and some. Prior to reaching the caves, we gathered a plan to lure a single one’s attention and draw it charging into a rock-side to disorientate it long enough for Xuna to climb onto it and drive her blade through its head. Of course, the plan didn’t go into fruition as some other Acolytes grabbed its attention enough to stop it mid-charge. Everyone was fighting in such close quarters that I would’ve been more of a burden then a benefit and so I kept my distance, only to notice several hanging rock formations above the beast’s head. Using everything I could muster, I managed to successfully pull them free and maneuver them into a position to cause fatal damage before launching them down. Alongside my fellow acolytes we managed to kill it although not without casualties. Some acolytes took trophies, but I didn’t even consider the thought though once we returned to the Overseer made a valid point. How does he know that we completed the trial without bringing back solid proof? A tooth, and eye? These things could belong to anything, so that lesson alone made me rethink my methods. That aside, it was a success and managed to merit a pass.”

“The second trial, unexpectedly wasn’t focused around brute force. More so survival, teamwork and quick thinking. The ship transporting the acolytes crashed in a desolate ice landscape, many were wounded by the impact though not severely. Many acolytes stood around for a casual conversation, though my intentions were to locate shelter from the icy winds that bellowed between the valley, with that i took a small group to locate such and thankfully i managed to locate a cave along with an abandoned campsite. Many wanted to look over the campsite understandably, though the weather conditions were causing complications and i informed all those present that we need to set up a camp and fire before we were to investigate anything. Some remained, others followed. The cave was clear of anything that would’ve caused a threat and so we progressed on speaking with one-another about what we need and how we could obtain it. I kept on fire-duty and managed to cut free some of the fabric from the tents within the campsite, though as expected it was frozen over and damp so i entrusted another acolyte to focus on drying them out. I have never encountered such a feeling before… the cold was unimaginable, even when we managed to create a fire it wasn’t nearly enough and i felt that horrible familiar feeling of fear once more. Another group soon returned with food and i aided in skinning it and making it somewhat edible before consumption along with another. We all stood around the small fire, having idle chatter amongst ourselves before finally deciding to move on. I still don’t understand how we managed to miss a large structure not that far from our location pulsing with energy. We were all being extremely weary on approaching it, except one, another new acolyte twi'lek known as Nob simply walked up to it. I yet do not understand if it was out of stupidity or attempting to prove his own worth… regardless, a sudden bolt of energy launched itself toward him past a specific point and he got launched back. Amazingly enough he seemed durable, wounded from the impact but alive nonetheless. A part of me wanted to leave him in pain on the ground, he could’ve put everyone at risk with his ignorance but i couldn’t just walk away… that isn’t me. Not long passed as a ship made itself known to everyone, i helped the twi'lek and we made our way to its location and thankfully it took us back. Out of the trials in general, this was the most threatening, fighting against the cold, starvation, dehydration, shelter, not including the beasts that we could’ve encountered, although i once again managed to merit a pass on this trial.”

“The last trial was difficult, in its own special way. No fighting, no survival, but it was entirely based around deception and information gathering. I am thankful that no torture was part of this trial, even when the pre-trial lesson indicated that it would play a part. Regardless, myself, Uthais and Leive waited back and didn’t enter along with the large group before us as to not draw unwanted attention off the get-go. We made a plan; however the plan didn’t really come into effect so we all went our own ways over the duration of the trial. Myself and Leive attempted to converse with a man seated by himself, it was looking bright though it didn’t last long before we were rudely interrupted by several others thus leading to the man in question becoming irritated and walked off. I gave him some time before attempting to speak with him again, luckily, he offered me the chance after the previous on goings. He was a drinker, that much was clear, so we eventually got to the stage of partaking in a drinking game whilst speaking to one-another in a casual fashion. I was more focused on gaining an inkling of trust before asking anything specific to draw unwanted attention towards me. Whilst engaged in conversation Nob, the twi’lek, walked up to me acting strange. I could only assume it was an act of sorts, either that or it was another side-effect of his dumbed down persona... either way i went with it. Turned out another drunk wanted to talk to me so Nob was setting out the groundwork for him to come across as the hero of the situation to grab my attention. After some jealousy made itself rather obvious, i managed to talk to this drunk and put him under the impression he had to interest me enough for me to even bother in the means of interesting gossip. It worked and with that i managed to follow up on some information he shared and that i needed for my task, after which i took my leave. In the end, i gathered information and reported it back which allowed me to pass the trial.”

“Although, i managed to pass all three trials… how?”

“Before i could even comprehend such a question, we found ourselves conversing within the library before Lord Sanguinis entered. Not one for conversation, he called out my name and informed me to kneel. All the acolytes, along with myself, was confused on what was coming although i had an idea. Then, i suddenly felt a deep pain in my gut following the next words spoken, i felt sick… he appointed me as his new apprentice. The Sith who has taken nearly everything away from me, put me through unimaginable torture and knows of my past had now taken me on as his apprentice. How can one even think clearly after that? What do i do now, what are my next moves? I can’t be his apprentice.”

“This holo-entry has been going on long enough i think. I need to think on my current situation and take it in. Prepare for what is to come next, and ready myself for it.”

“End transmission.”

*The last words spoken clearly hold great pain and anguish. The holo-entry cuts off without much more of a warning. *

[Joslae]

Entry Six - Change.


*The familiar buzzing of the holo-communicator becomes audible, as the gentle form of a woman clad in black robes, seated with her legs crossed and fingers interlocked below her chin becomes visible. It is clear this is Valkara, however a somewhat uneasy aura surrounds her.*

“I haven’t done one of these in some time, situations manifested that spiraled beyond expectations. I have changed, my outlook has changed and everything I once knew has shown their true colours.”

*Valkara’s piercing blue gaze stared eerily towards the holo for several unspoken moments, it is unclear what the reasoning was, but one may conclude she was pondering on what to follow into next.*

“Atreus Eetu is dead, because of my own inability to protect him. Struck down by the coward known as Lord Sanguinis; my new master, from the shadows at his weakest point. He was focused on protecting me more-so than himself which lead to his defeat. I tried to intervene, even the heat of the moment didn’t give me enough strength to do much as I was easily overpowered. My force bond was broken, Atreus Eetu was unconscious and taken away as I found myself in a close second. I woke up within the Medbay. I don’t remember much but I know I trashed some droids. This newly found power, the sensation of it all is addictive and I have yet to control it. I will have my revenge, I will do whatever I must to reach the power required to enact it.
I am finding conflicting thoughts clouding my mind, making it difficult to push myself to my limits.”

”Don’t lose hope.... My child."

“His last words spoken… but hope is what got me into this situation. Hope is what crushed everything I held dear. Hope has caused nothing more than misery.”

*Her hands reposition themselves to settle on her lap, unintentionally gripping ahold of her robes tightly. She closes her eyes for a moment, taking in a deep inhale followed swiftly with a slow exhale as her grip is loosened.*

“My apprentice title is holding some interest, my training coming from other apprentices within the Kalkoran powerbase. Siors is helping me with the use of the force and saber combat, I’m learning a lot from him and it is somewhat unexpected. He never took an interest when I was an acolyte, but times have obviously changed. Another is Cerberus, although he has some reasoning behind his sudden interest. He was instructed by my master to keep close tabs on me, befriend me and gather information that I share. He gave me a lesson prior to the events I previously described, in Force Shock. I failed, completely crushing my appearance in the eyes of all those present in a show of idiocy. I paid for my inabilities as one would expect. Those were the two that wanted to aid me in a positive light, although Zhephra and Vaenra have just been more of an unwanted burden than anything else, showing interest in something pointless and causing problems where there was none. They will get what comes to them in time, that is promised.”

“Lastly, I speak about my connection with Sovernus and Utahis. In the past I became close to the pair, we were together through everything and discussed all our future plans. We were there for support, helping each other with our own issues and working towards a solution. Nothing could break us apart, even when I progressed to apprenticeship people tried and failed. An amusing play on our part in a game of unawares. I found myself in a situation, unexpected feelings were building between myself and another. I will not throw out a name - although it was peculiar.
After the events in regards to Atreus Eetu I found that they had shown me their true colours, Utahis turned himself away from me easily and was willing to strike me down without hesitation. Sovernus changed… now more distant than ever. Words were exchanged, actions were carried out and now my outlook on those I cared for has changed entirely. For the better? I have yet to find out.”

“This game is yet to continue, however the road it was taking is new and pristine. I find myself free from the restrictions of the Jedi, and locked in company of Sanguinis. I will do what is required to break free from these bonds, but it is a road I must travel as I am not yet strong enough.”

“End transmission.”

*The blue hue of the holo-communicator soon shuts off, as does the form of Valkara. Nothing more then a slight wave of her right hand notable prior to the end of her transmission.*

[Joslae]

Entry Seven - Contemplation.

*The gentle blue hue of the holo bursts to life, though no visuals are seen as of yet. After a few moments pass the device levitates over toward Valkara, currently standing with an upright posture within a location unknown. Her attention fixated in a singular direction, the audible sound of rain tapping against a surface almost therapeutically as her figure moves into frame. Her right hand resting against the small of her back, her left hand bent at the elbow and fingers moving slightly, clearly manipulating the holo-device to a position where her form would be seen. A deep sigh trails from her lips, before the silence was soon broken.*

“I had no intention on advancing these entries, it has been awhile. The weight of my former masters death continues to rest heavy on my shoulders. My lightsaber is a daily reminder of my past, who I used to be and who I have become. Yet, none have questioned or taken note of the abnormality of such a saber, the fact it belonged to a Jedi would no doubt cause controversy.
Still, Atreus is dead and I never got to say a final goodbye. He was taken for some means of experimentation I believe. Attempting to brave my new master with my curiosity, I was informed he was dead and the conversation was concluded, although Lord Sanguinis’ words are hollow, empty and deceitful. I yet remain unconvinced, hoping that my questions will one day be answered.”

“...With that said, I have given up on my ambitions on returning home. Even if redemption was a possibility I would never become the person I once was. Some may question if i miss it, the answer is yes, I miss the experiences, the family I once had and everything in between.Truthfully, I was being held back from my true potential and I have come to terms with this fact. I however, would still not consider the Jedi as enemies unless given reason to and I dread the day I encounter one on the field.”

* Valkara would pause, seeming to reflect and ponder on the subject in question. She would soon wave a hand in a dismissive manner, clearing her throat before continuing to speak on.*

“To move on… i have encountered some difficulty in regards to Sovereign. Many are oblivious, with no knowledge connected with such a name. My experiences with Sovereign never ended well, we have conversed on subjects that have both been enlightening and disheartening although they ended in hostility. I consider him the shade of Sovernus, they are polar opposites of one another with different goals and ambitions. A delusional mind, believing his superiority above all others alongside his idiotic claims of being pure. He speaks of Sovernus truly being overthrown, however i know it is nothing more than meaningless words spoken by a desperate man.”

“However i cannot help but feel powerless, these circumstances have ran through my mind on a continuous loop and yet i remain incapable of finding a solid solution. My only viable option has made itself known in the form of a message, a former associate of Sovernus known as Zena. Perhaps she can shed some much needed light on such a dim situation.”

“End transmission.”

*The device shuts off as the transmission is concluded.*